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felicia-angel.livejournal.com

Series: While I Lay Dreaming
Chapter Title: and this one is for bravery/and this one for me
Author:

felicia_angel
Fandoms: Supernatural, Paprika (movie)
Characters: (this chapter) Hendriksen, Doctor Shima, Doctor Chiba (mentioned), Dean
Series Summary: AU from "Swan Song" and "Jus in Bello" - Dean checked into the Institute because of insomnia. Now, his family must attempt to piece together a way to save him and the world from something dangerous.
Chapter Summary: Victor Hendriksen has finally caught Dean Winchester...and is now responsible for him when Dean dies. But the more he looks into Dean's past, the weirder things look.

AO3 Link

( Chapter 2 )

sparrow-lately.livejournal.com

Title: What's Done in the Dark
Rating: Hard PG-13.
Words: 3,501
Spoilers: None really, completely AU.
Warnings: Violence, language, child abuse, reasonably minor gore, briefly hinted-at sexual abuse, psychological issues, general misery, very very terrible father!John, psychotic!Sam, broken!lost!Dean. Not a happy story.
Summary: John Winchester's sons are on a mission from God. This is set in some indeterminable time after John's death, but if the cops are onto the Winchesters Dean doesn't know it. Written for the eternally fabulous

prufrock_26, who wanted PTSD!murdering!John, psychotic murder!Sam, and a Dean who still thought that his family killed demons. This could also theoretically be a prequel to part two of "Variations on a Theme."
Neurotic author's notes: Title and cut text both from Johnny Cash's "God's Gonna Cut You Down." I wrote the bulk of this on the train and I'm not 100% pleased with this fic, as I wanted Dean's mental process to be a little more disjointed and Sam's manipulation a little clearer, but whatever, I got good news from the doctor today (this! is! so! rare! I'm! over! the! fucking! moon!!) and I wanted to post fic. Bruce, my love, I hope you like it. :)

cocoplumb.livejournal.com

Title: QUIET IN MY TOWN
Author: cocoplumb
Rating: PG-13
Genre: SPN. hurt/comfort. AU.
Word Count: 4500+
Summary: It wasn’t Dean Winchester’s destiny to end up owning a tiny barbers shop on the outskirts of a tiny town in Minnesota.
Warnings/Notes: Another story by me involving haircutting. I have a serious problem, I know. The boys aren’t biologically related, Dean used to be a hunter, now he’s a barber with complete amnesia and a bad shoulder. Sam is a –sometimes- abused foster kid and Dean’s new customer who keeps on coming back for some reason. ALSO- completely un-beta'd. I'll fix it tomorrow, I promise.
(It wasn’t Dean Winchester’s destiny to end up owning a tiny barbers shop...)

seeing-ghosts.livejournal.com

Hello everybody! Let me introduce myself as your monthly reccer for February. And since procrastionation once again won over, well, common sense, I am glad to welcome you all to my rec post, here at the very end of the month. (In my defense, that always comes much faster than I expect it to in February.)

I pondered over a common theme for today's recs, and then decided to just do one that is completely random and has no theme whatsoever. And guess what, the common theme found itself! All these recs are either Dean/Cas, or very heavy on their friendship. (If you've met me, you can't be surprised in the least.)

So let's move onto the Dean/Cas February post! ;)

Title: Who If I Cried Out Would Hear Me
Author:

misachan
Tags: blood-loss, captivity, exhaustion, fainting/collapse, missing (kidnapping/abduction/etc.), pain
Characters: Castiel, Bobby, Dean
Genre/pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG-13
Word-count: 6,600 words
Spoilers: Vague Season 6
Warnings: Violence, some language, serious smiting
Summary: Dean goes missing on a hunt; Castiel can hear him but can't find him, and longer the situation drags on the unhappier Cas gets. An angry angel of the Lord is not someone to be messed with.

Title: Tell Me That the Lights Won't Change
Author:

earzwideopen
Tags: dizziness/vertigo, emotional pain/hurt, fainting/collapse, insomnia, pain, purgatory/post-purgatory issues, sleep deprivation
Characters: Dean, Castiel, Benny
Genre/pairing: Gen or pre-slash
Rating: R
Spoilers: Season 8 (Purgatory flashbacks)
Warnings: Language, general Purgatory horror and darkness, extreme angst
Summary: Dean, battered and sleepless in Purgatory, has forgotten how to search for the light at the end of the tunnel. His angel helps him remember. Hurt!Insomniac!Dean, Protective!Cas.
Reccer’s comments: Written for my prompt! ♥

( 5 more under the cut... )

reapertownusa.livejournal.com

Title: Begin In Innocence
Author:

reapertownusa
Characters: Dean, Sam
Genre/pairing: Gen with past Dean/OMC (non-con)
Rating: R
Word-count: 11,600
Warnings: Dub/non-con, molestation, spanking, themes of past sexual and physical abuse of a child
Summary: Dean confronts a monster from his childhood while Sam struggles to understand what happened and how he can help his brother to release the pain of the past.

Begin In Innocence

twisted-slinky.livejournal.com

Title: Until the Flames Go Out
Masterpost: link
Word Count: ~8500
Rating: PG-13
Characters: John, Dean, Sam
Genre: Gen., pre-series
Summary: Dean can't stay afraid of the flames, even if he'd probably be safer that way. Even if staring at the fire burns away a little part of him in the end. A story told in scenes from 1992-2006.

sparrow-lately.livejournal.com

Title: Become As Little Children (or more scenes from an alternate universe wherein Sam stole the Winchester boys in 1987)
Rating: PG-13
Words: 4,335
Spoilers: Vague, but for all aired episodes.
Warnings: Language, briefly mentioned child abuse, briefly mentioned neglect.
Summary: More from the world of "Reverse Engineering" if Sam had stayed. Previously played with this verse in "The Competitive Exclusion Principle States." So I guess it's a verse now?
Neurotic author's notes:
Well, in an effort to edit one little thing I managed to delete this entry. Go, Sparrow. Here it is again. :P
Merry Christmas, Christmas-celebrators! This is my gift to you. These
are the scenes I wrote to make myself happy during finals week, and now
I've only just had time to post them (I got home Friday night, and this
is the first moment I've actually had to myself!). As with before,
please ignore any timey-wimey implications of this--Sam changed history
and the Winchesters as they existed before that are gone, I'm thinking.
That's my story and I'm stickin' to it.
Also: The title is
from the Bible, from Matthew 18:3: "Verily I say unto you, Except ye be
converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the
kingdom of heaven." The cut text is from Seneca (Hercules Furens).

kc246.livejournal.com

Title: Dean's 12th Birthday
Author: KC246
Summary: Even though Dean didn't have high expectations for his birthday, he never thought he would spend it looking after a sick father, soothing a frightened little brother and nursing a black eye.
Rating: PG-13

Dean's 12th Birthday

jennytork.livejournal.com

TITLE: The Red Head
AUTHOUR:

jennytork
RATING: PG for language
GENRE: Gen, Wee!Chesters, H/C
SUMMARY: "Why's D's hair all red?"
NOTES: Written for my

hc_bingo square: "unconsciousness"

The Red Head

Current Mood: exhausted

verucasalt123.livejournal.com

Title: Masks
Pairing: Dean/OMCs
Rating: R
W/C: ~1300
Warnings: prostitution, implied underage
Summary: It’s just what has to be done.

Masks

sparrow-lately.livejournal.com

Title: The Competitive Exclusion Principle States (or scenes from an alternate universe wherein Sam stole the Winchester boys in 1987)
Rating: PG-13
Words: 5,446
Spoilers: Vague, but for all aired episodes.
Warnings: Language, briefly mentioned child abuse, briefly mentioned neglect.
Summary: Basically picked up where "Reverse Engineering" left off, but Cas never comes for Sam.
Neurotic author's notes: This isn't really fic so much as scenes I wrote to make myself happy during finals week that became something akin to a fic. Please ignore all the timey-wimey issues and implications regarding Sam and Sammy coexisting, 2012!Dean, etc., etc. This is sort of just mindless self-indulgence (hence the slight woobiefication of Dean, for which I apologize on bended knee).
Also: The competetive exclusion principle states that two species competing for the same resources cannot coexist if other ecological factors are constant. I'm a nerdy, nerdy nerd. Cut text is from Mitch Albom. (God, remember The Five People You Meet in Heaven? Somebody should do a Supernatural/Five People You Meet in Heaven crossover of some kind.)

rosereddawn.livejournal.com

Title: A Ram Caught in the Thicket | AO3
Author:

lacerta
Characters: Dean, John
Genre/pairing: gen
Rating: PG-13 (What's the rating on bible stories?)
Word-count: 3700
Spoilers: none, pre-series
Warnings: child abuse
Summary: And Abraham stretched forth his hand, and took the knife to slay his son.

downjune.livejournal.com

Title: God Save the Human Cannon Ball
Author: downjune
Characters/Pairings: Sam'n'Dean (with some vague Sam/Dean), Claire Novak, Jody Mills, Castiel. Also, brief Sam/Jody.
Rating: R for violence
Word Count: 19,250
Warnings: Case-related incident of homophobic violence
Summary: In nearly every major religion, and in all the lore he can find on the subject of Purgatory, the living can influence the fortunes of the dead through prayers and offerings. And Sam's sure Dean isn't even dead, so, piece of cake. All he has to do is make the right offering. It only takes seven months -- and 29 years.

A post-Season 7 AU, and a story of past and present heroism.

Notes: Here's my minibang from over at

samdean_otp ! I hope everyone's been checking out the goodies posting there! Massive thank yous go to

harrigan for whipping this beast into shape and for being appropriately ruthless in her beta reading. Sam is a better Sam because of her careful eye. Also, hugs and squeezes to

killabeez for being a much-needed third set of eyes when all perspective had been lost. Any remaining errors are entirely my own.

As for music, here's a link to the songs that inspired the story. There'll probably be a download available in the future, but for now enjoy Sam's songs for Dean. The title of this story is taken from "Wild Billy's Circus Story."

Finally, art!

petite_madame swooped in and hammered out such gorgeous achy lonely pretty art, I'm still trying and failing to describe it properly. Just look at it! Be warned, it is very spoilery—beautiful and spoilery.

Here's all of her collected art!

And here's a link to the fic!

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Title: The Gentleness of Home
Author: aceofhearts61 @ AO3 /

cagedwriter61 @ LJ
Tags: bed sharing, hugs/cuddling, spooning, chronic pain
Characters: Dean, Sam
Genre/pairing: None. Primary nonsexual/nonromantic relationship between Sam and Dean. Curtain!fic, future!fic, fluff
Rating: PG-13
Word-count:
Spoilers: None
Warnings: None
Summary: Sam looks after Dean on a rainy day. Future!fic. Hunter retirement. Curtain!fic. Cuddling. Belly rubs. Comfort. Bed sharing.
Reccer: anonymous
Reccer’s comments: The idea of Winchester cuddles, with the “sound and smell of rain coming through the window” is such a peaceful, nice one. This one will put a smile on your face.

Title: It Leaves a Stain On All Your Clothes (And No Detergent Gets It Out)
Author:

purple_carpets
Tags: abandonment issues, body image issues, bottom!Dean, bruises/bruising, child abuse, childhood trauma, clothes sharing, crying!Dean, daddy issues, emotional pain/hurt, exhaustion, fainting/collapse, fever, headache/migraine, heatstroke, insecurities (misc./other/uncategorized), manhandling, mutism/voice loss, nightmares/night terrors, pretty!Dean, psychological issues, ptsd, secrets (somebody finds out), self-esteem issues, sexual assault/abuse (non-con), stress, sunburn
Characters: Dean, Sam, OMC
Genre/pairing: Gen, with past non-con, casefic
Rating: R
Word-count: 21,000
Spoilers: up through season 2
Warnings: past sexual abuse, language, buckets worth of angst
Summary: Back in 1992 the Winchesters spent a summer with an old hunter in Louisiana. Dean never told anyone about what happened during those nights, when John was out and Sammy was asleep. Now, they need to go back there on a hunt and Sam should really stop asking questions and throwing worried glances Dean's way. Dean's is fine. Not like he was traumatized or anything.
Reccer: anonymous
Reccer’s comments: This is one of my favorite Big Bangs of 2011. It’s an emotionally tense, gripping case-fic that has Sam finding out a big secret about his brother.

➽ This post was compiled by

maypoles and is posted under this account for organizational purposes.

sparrow-lately.livejournal.com

Title: Starving in the Belly of the Whale
Rating: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: Sam, Dean, Bobby, minor John, Jess, and Cas
Words: ~9,600
Spoilers: Through the end of season four.
Warnings: Lots and lots and lots of talk of suicide, language, brief references to physical child abuse, very, very brief references to something approaching sexual abuse, some pretty severe familial dysfunction, brief discussions of torture, lots of none-too-healthy mental states.
Summary: Dean goes under. Written for this prompt.
Neurotic author's notes: Oh lordy it's four am. Okay, well, I loved this prompt. I really did. And this story...mostly fits it? I mean, yes, it does, but it's also just a sort of broad look at the Winchesters and the state of their union circa the end of season four (and kind of beyond), and how they got to be there. Blargh. It's long and strange and sort of stream of consciousness-y.
One more: Title and cut text are both from Tom Waits's "Starving in the Belly of the Whale."

don't go dreaming, don't go scheming, a man must trust his mettle in the crooked old world...

sparrow-lately.livejournal.com

I...am not 100% sure this goes here, because it's mostly hurt and not much in the way of comfort, so...if it doesn't go here, it can come down. But here it is. *is nervously babbling*

Title: Variations on a Theme (or five ways it might have been)
Rating: A hard PG-13, if such a thing exists
Pairings: Sam/Jess (sometimes), mostly gen
Words: ~8,000
Spoilers: For pretty much all aired episodes
Warnings: Descriptions of violence and physical/emotional child abuse, discussion of suicide, lots of language, mental illness, major character death, gratuitous hurt!Dean and a little bit of hurt!Sam, hardcore Biblical geerkery in part four. John does not come off well in this story, which was not my intention ~~(though I'm no great fan of John so I'm not too fussed)~~.
Summary: Maybe the Winchesters fight monsters and prevent the apolcalypse, and maybe they don't. Five places the Winchester boys might have ended up.
Neurotic author's notes: This happened because I was sitting in my religion class thinking about parallel universes. And also about how fun/weird it would be to contemplate the addition of new books to the canonical Bible, because I am a huge nerd. Therefore, this happened. Also, the cut text is from Richard Feynman's The Character of Physical Law, because I am an incurable dork.

every theoretical physicist who is any good knows six or seven different theoretical representations for exactly the same physics.

purple-carpets.livejournal.com

Title: Crashing in the Same Car
Author:

purple_carpets
Characters: Sam, Dean and Dean again
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 5100
Spoilers: Teeny-tiny mention of S7
Warning: Uhm...nothing beyond your run of the mill Winchester-ness
Disclaimer: Not my boys. Kripke broke them long before I ever got to them.
Summary: Post S7 Curtain!fic. Dean isn't exatcly the biggest Dean fan out there. Having this kid following him around as a constant reminder of all the things that are wrong with him isn't helping either.

Thing is, Sam’s never really thought about it at all. How watching his little, four-year-old life burn to the ground like that screws up a kid way worse than John Winchester ever could.

annartism.livejournal.com

Title: Far Greater
Artist:

annartism
Characters: Dean, Ben
Medium: coloured pencil & watercolours & photoshop
Notes: two pictures for

purple_carpets story "Far Greater"

sailoreyes67.livejournal.com

Aka, two comment-fics...

The Tree of Dreams (And Death And Doom)
Summary: Yet another fill for this prompt: The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and wee Dean gets stuck in a treeeee. There are tears.
About as much angst as you'd expect from five-year-old Dean (aka, quite a bit). It's still got comfort in there, though. Why yes, I was just starting in on this when I spontaneously stopped giggling and started taking the prompt seriously..
Wordcount: 1,227
Spoilers/warnings: pants-wetting, if that upsets anyone. Um, spoilers for... the pilot?
Disclaimer: These beautiful people don't belong to me.
tagged with: carried!Dean, crying!Dean, daddy issues, psychological trauma, grief, childhood trauma, emotional pain/hurt, mobility issues (because sort of?), pre-series

~~

The Stars At The End of the Longest Day
Summary: on July 4th, 2010, Dean wakes up in a hospital bed... and Sam is there. But that can't be right... can it? Fill for this. It's the fourth of July, and Dean is in the hospital. Sam smuggles him gently onto the roof to watch the local fireworks display.
Sam is not as gentle as he could have been, for reasons that will make sense if the first part of the summary made sense. But, he also sort of... is? Ambiguity. Angst.
Wordcount: 1,733
Spoilers/warnings: end of season 5. 6x1 to be really safe.
Disclaimer: these beautiful people don't belong to me.
tagged with: concussion/head trauma, grief, pneumonia, emotional pain/hurt, mobility issues (because sort of?), season 5, season 6

Oh and both fics are gen.

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tie fire around my heels, send me a-runnin' through the fields.

Entries tagged with childhood trauma

Supernatural/Paprika Fusion: While I Lay Dreaming (2/?)

Fic: What's Done in the Dark

SPN | Quiet In My Town

Monthly guest reccer for February - Theme: hurt!Dean & Castiel

Fic: Begin In Innocence, R, Dean, Sam, gen

Fic: Malapropos

Fic: Until the Flames Go Out - Gen

Fic: Become as Little Children

Dean's 12th Birthday

Fic: The Red Head

Masks

Fic: The Competitive Exclusion Principle States

Fic: A Ram Caught in the Thicket; Dean, John; PG-13, gen

SD Minibang: God Save the Human Cannon Ball

monthly member/guest rec submissions: a couple of gen-ish recs

Fic: Starving in the Belly of the Whale

Fic: Variations on a Theme

Crashing in the Same Car

art for "Far Greater" by purple_carpets

The Tree of Dreams (And Death And Doom) & The Stars At The End of the Longest Day

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