hoodie_time | Entries tagged with childhood trauma

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

Like previos episodes, this one has shifting POV's that include Dean's. A reminder: this is a Sam-centric fic, but it definitely dives into Dean's internal struggle as he deals with his own trauma.

Title: Away from These Shores (11/?)
Author:

ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers / warnings for this episode: Past suicidal ideation (and then some) in one paragraph; Dissociation (mostly not Dean's, for now); post-trauma, flashbacks, past violence & torture in hell and the Cage; quick reference the Winchesters' painful upbringing.
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

He remembers his father’s arm around his shoulder, his eyes dark and worried, his voice doing that thing it did whenever he was feeling too much and decided to feel nothing at all. I know you miss him, but you can’t fall apart on me like that, we’ve got a job to do.

He remembers trying.

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

*A/N: I deleted my own post last year about this WIP while going through a bad bout of anxiety. So, seeing as I've added a few new chapters since then, I thought I'd re-post. I really hope that's okay (and my apologies if I miss any PM's -- I'm apparently a complete moron, because I cannot for the life of me work the LJ inbox anymore. Not sure why).

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This started out as a Sam-centric fic, and it still is, so fair warning about that; but my fondness for Dean and his struggles snuck in soon enough. So, this fic has caretaker!Dean who is also increasingly revealing and dealing with his own trauma, and we get his POV as well. I think that might be relevant here. The next chapter I'm working on seems to be relatively Dean-heavy, too.

Title: Away from These Shores (10/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers / warnings: A lot of dissociation (mostly not Dean's, for now); occasional self-harm in later chapters; post-trauma, past violence & torture in hell and the Cage; occasional mentions of the Winchesters' painful upbringing. Some grief, since in this slightly AU Cas did not survive Swan Song, and Bobby & Ellen are around (but Jo is gone).
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

on AO3: from the beginning, or latest chpater (10)

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

Title: Untitled [Dean, nightmare]
Author: ever_dimming
Category: Gen
Rating: teen and up (not familiar with the rating system, sorry)
Characters: Dean, Sam
Warnings: See tags, but nothing we don't see in / know from the Show
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am only suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer even more.

Summary:
If for no other reason, Sam believes in the existence of a god because there has GOT to be some twisted sense of humor behind giving night terrors to a man who sleeps with a gun under his pillow.
Dean is in no condition to appreciate the irony, though.

Gen, post 1.09. The week following their visit to their childhood home is hard, and one night Dean suffers a massive nightmare. Sam tries to help -- not like he hasn't been through this with Dean before -- but this one hurts in whole new ways.

LJ, AO3

Current Mood: unhappy with this fic
Current Location: bed

kalliel

Title: Childhood I
Genre: gen, pre-9x04 "Slumber Party," exhausted Dean headspace
Characters: Dean (POV), Kevin; Linda and John by extension; a bit of Sam
Rating: R
Word Count: ~3,700
Warnings:

masturbation, brief non-explicit mentions of past underage, talk of prostitution

Summary: What happens on the "Dean and Kevin go get falafel" trip stays in the "Dean and Kevin go get falafel" trip.

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Title: Childhood III
Genre: gen, 9x23 "Do You Believe In Miracles?" tag
Characters: John (POV), Dean; Millie Winchester (pre-series)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~3100
Warnings:

use of racial slurs/the Vietnam War/Red Scare rhetoric, reference to suicide (non canon character)

Summary: In the moment between Dean's soul failing to ascend to Heaven, and Dean's soul returning to Earth a demon, John catches it. And, inasmuch as one can speak to an amorphous ball of sound and light and memory, they have a chat.

NB: Childhood is a three-part series set across S9 about childhood, parenthood, and how they weave into one another. Each part is thematically connected to the others, but can stand alone!

kalliel

Title: Bildungsroman
Genre: gen, pre-series, northern Plains gothic
Characters: Dean, Bobby. Peripheral John, Sam. Bobby POV.
Rating: R
Word Count: ~2500
Warnings: This fic is gen in that it contains no romantic pairings; however, it discusses, imagines, and treats sex and sexuality as major themes. underage sexuality, non-explicit statutory rape, psychological trauma (sexual and otherwise), questionable parenting choices
Summary: Sex, drugs, and Totoros.
Notes: Inspired by Dean’s My Neighbor Totoro reference in 11x08 “Just My Imagination” and encouragement from

milly_gal,

septembers_coda, and

brightly_lit in this comment thread. This is not, however, the cute fic such a prompt richly deserves, nor anything you might have expected or desired.

Sex, drugs, and Totoros.

sw0rdy.livejournal.com

Title: Most Likely To

Author:

sw0rdy

Summary: “Dude, if a shrink interviewed us at that age, you think the report would be all kittens and rainbows? Come on.”

Rating: PG-13

Genre/pairing: Gen

Spoilers: Episode tag for Season 10, Episode 11 'There's No Place Like Home'.

Warnings: Bad language, mentions to possible violence, mental health issues.

Word count: 1,272

Most Likely To

freya922.livejournal.com

Title: Lady Madonna
Author: Freya922
Pairing: Gen
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Adult language, angst
Word Count: 4,600+
Summary: After the family moves on short notice, Mary realizes their new home is inhabited by a ghost with an alarming fixation on three-and-a-half-year-old Dean. She has to take care of the situation while keeping John in the dark. A story of wee!Dean in danger originally posted as part of the 2014 Summergen fix exchange.

Read it here.

kalliel

Title: Psychological Diagnostic Battery of Dean Winchester
Author: pirrofarfalla@Tumblr
Genre: meta; fic, of sorts
Character: Dean
Rating: SFW
Warnings: discussion concerning mental illness, specifically depression, alcohol use, and suicidal ideation
Summary: I wrote this essay for a Master’s level Diagnosis and Assessment class. It is an objective, complete psychological diagnostic battery that would be completed for any client seeking professional mental health aid.

Reccer's Comments: An interesting read for many hoodietimers, I'm sure. :) The part I was most interested in was the excision of any overt mentions of the supernatural in the exam, or as the author puts it, "I think the striking reality of Dean’s situation with the focus solely being on him and not the intervention of Heaven and Hell is enough to provide a broader understanding of who Dean Winchester is as a human, rather than [solely] as the Righteous Man." The battery goes from pre-series midway or so through S2. God, imagine what it would say now.

justmep2.livejournal.com

Title: Hail Mary
Author:

justmep2
Characters: Dean, Sam. Mentions of Mary, John
Genre: Gen, Angst
Pairing: None
Warning: PTSD
Rating: PG-13
Word-count: 1,048
Spoilers: Coda to 9x07 Bad Boys
Disclaimer: Wish they were mine.
Summary: Dean never stopped talking after his mom died. Not really.
Author's Note: Dean broke my heart in 9x07 as he usually does, but it wasn't until the very end of the episode that this bunny came to sit on my lap and refused to leave. Dean knew how to make Timmy's mom ghost disappear and told Sam it was just a hail Mary, that he just got lucky. Not if you ask me.

schmerzerling.livejournal.com

After a year of lurking, I finally come bearing a contribution!

Title: More or Less
Pairing: Dean/Cas
Word Count: This chapter: ~6500, Whole fic: ~100,000
Rating: Currently a PG-13, but will eventually contain more explicit content.
Warnings: See notes on AO3.
Summary: Another story about free will, told from Castiel's point of view. Dean has a severe stutter. Sam has an anger problem. Castiel has a religious crisis. Small town religious politics, confused feelings, and literary references abound. High School!AU, Human!AU.

Read it here at AO3!

skeletncloset.livejournal.com

FIC: Feel Like You Do
Author:

skeletncloset
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Dean/Benny, unrequited John/Dean, Sam/Dean undertones
Word Count:~1.7K
Warnings: Angst. Umm, that's it I think. Oh, and incest if it isn't obvious, allusions to underage prostitution. Daddy issues like whoa.
Summary: Dean doesn’t beg, even when he wants to, even less when he should.

brightly-lit.livejournal.com

Title: Kintsugi
Author:

brightly_lit
Rating: PG-13
Genre: gen, intense angst, h/c, emotional h/c, brother feels
Characters: Dean, Sam
Word Count: 4,600
Warnings: language, horrific concepts, mentions of child abuse and torture, PTSD
Summary: Dean needs a new protective sigil tattoo, and he visits the tattoo artist other hunters recommend--the only person in the area who's precise enough for the work. Getting two words in a row out of the guy is hard labor, but undeniably worth it in the end.

Kintsugi is a Japanese method of mending broken pottery with gold, where the pot is considered more beautiful for having been broken.

READ HERE.

brightly-lit.livejournal.com

Title: Rumpelstiltskin
Author:

brightly_lit
Rating: PG, not even any language
Genre: gen, wee!chesters, angst, h/c, 4.03 episode tag, metafic
Characters: John, Dean, Sam, Azazel
Word Count: 2,600
Summary: Sometimes, life is like a fairy tale, at least for the Winchesters--not the happy cartoon movie versions, but the grim original ones, where happy endings are all too rare.

Read it here.

brightly-lit.livejournal.com

Title: Boundless Love
Author:

brightly_lit
Rating: PG-13 for language, a corpse, and disturbing situations/concepts
Genre: gen, deathfic, angst, horror
Characters: Dean, Sam's body
Word Count: 1,000
Warning: character death, spoilers through 9.01
Summary: Sam didn't say yes to Ezekiel, and a broken Dean struggles to come to terms with it. THIS IS NOT A FEEL-GOOD FIC.

"Dean wrestled Sam’s body out to the Impala, where he carefully buckled him into his seat and tilted his head so it looked like any other time his brother had sat beside him in the Impala."

scribble2much.livejournal.com

Title: Light At The End Of The Tunnel

Author:

scribble2much

Characters: Dean, Sam, John

Words: 5,700

Genres: Hurt/Comfort/Angst

Rating: PG 13

Pairings: None/Gen

Warnings: Mental Health Issues

Spoilers: Episode 1:01

Disclaimer: I don't own or profit from Supernatural

Summary: On the darkest days, Dean would remember Sam saying "It's no fun when you're not around" and he would fight to hold. Pre-Series

Read it on LJ

Read it on Fanfiction.Net

brightly-lit.livejournal.com

Title: Saving Sam
Author:

brightly_lit
Rating: PG, nothing they can't show on t.v.
Genre: gen, hurt!Dean, h/c, meta
Characters: Dean, Sam, John, Dr. Hydeker, Karla, Tessa
Word Count: ~2,200
Summary: Dean wakes up in the hospital. He's told he was in a coma, his mother and father are still alive ... and that he is Sam, an only child. There never was a Dean.

Read it here.

skiing-pelican.livejournal.com

Title: coming home
Author:

skiing_pelican
Characters: John, Dean, Sam, Castiel, Charlie
Genre/pairing: gen;
Rating: NC 17
Word-count: wip (currently ~12 000)
Spoilers: spoilers up to and including 8.23
Warnings: none
Summary: Season 8 coda, be aware of spoilers! Dad suddenly comes back! As if the Winchester's lifes weren't complicated enough already. Sam needs to get better, Cas needs to learn how to be human, and now they also have to deal with him. Don't get them wrong, they love their dad - but John does have this effect on people.
Disclaimer: The CW owns SPN and it's characters. I just play with them.

Read on Ao3 or FF

darth-firefly.livejournal.com

Title: Feathers of Black
Rating: PG-13
Prompt: Suicide Attempt
Word Count: 1525
Warnings: Child abuse, attempted suicide
Summary: November, 1988. A shtriga in Fort Douglas unintentionally saves Dean Winchester the night it decided to feast on the eldest of the Winchester boys. All Dean wants to do is die, so he can be with his mom. Deaf!Dean Verse

Feathers of Black

Current Mood: sore
Current Location: Commonwealth of Missouri
Current Music: Elton John

brightly-lit.livejournal.com

Title: Family Night
Author:

brightly_lit
Rating: PG
Genre: gen, wee!chesters, slice of life, hurt/comfort
Characters: John, wee!Dean, wee!Sam
Word Count: 1,500
Summary: John Winchester has two rowdy boys to take care of while he travels the country and hunts, staying in cruddy hotels along the way. As hard as that sounds, it's even harder, because one of those boys is Dean.

Read it here!

sparrow-lately.livejournal.com

Title: Hold Tomorrow Tightly (or, still more scenes from an alternate universe where Sam stole the Winchester boys in 1987)
Rating: PG-13
Words: 2,729
Spoilers: None really, AU.
Warnings: Vague reference to child abuse/neglect.
Summary: More of the Reverse Engineering universe. Sam contemplates time, history, and parenthood.
Neurotic author's notes: Pure, unadulterated cuddly fluff, because I've had a horrible few weeks and because

classiczeppelin is a cool chick. Title comes from Neal A. Maxwell: "You rock a sobbing child without wondering if today's world is passing you by, because you know you hold tomorrow tightly in your arms." Cut text comes from my favorite speech from my favorite play (Arcadia) by my (second) favorite playwright (Tom Stoppard).

We shed as we pick up, like travellers who must carry everything in their arms, and what we let fall will be picked up by those behind. The procession is very long and life is very short. We die on the march. But there is nothing outside the march so nothing can be lost to it.

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Entries tagged with childhood trauma

Away from These Shores (11/?)

Away from These Shores (traumatized, caretaker Dean)

Dean, nightmare, post 1.09 (Home)

[Fic] 2 fics - Childhood I & III - Dean&Kevin, Dean&John

[Fic] Bildungsroman - Dean, Bobby; peripheral John, Sam. Bobby POV. Pre-series. Totoros.

Fic: No Place Like Home Episode Tag - 'Most Likely To'

Lady Madonna

[Fic/Meta Rec] Psychological Diagnostic Battery of Dean Winchester

Fic: Hail Mary (1/1)

Fic: More or Less, Chapter 1/?

FIC: Feel Like You Do 1/1 [NC-17]

Fic: Kintsugi

Fic: Rumpelstiltskin

Fic: Boundless Love

Fic: Light At The End Of The Tunnel

Fic: Saving Sam

Fic: coming home 1-8(?)

Feathers of Black

Fic: Family Night

Fic: Hold Tomorrow Tightly

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