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little-creek96.livejournal.com

Title: Stand And Breathe
Author: Little Creek
Characters: Sam, Dean, Castiel, Jack
Genre/pairing: gen, no pairing
Rating: PG-13
Word-count: 2560
Spoilers: Up to and including 14x08 "Byzantium."
Summary: "Dean's out of the car before it's even completely stopped, fear propelling him forward and forcing the words out of his mouth harshly as Sam pulls himself slowly to his feet." A look into Dean's headspace in the opening scenes of 14x08 Byzantium.

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ever-dimming.livejournal.com

Like previos episodes, this one has shifting POV's that include Dean's. A reminder: this is a Sam-centric fic, but it definitely dives into Dean's internal struggle as he deals with his own trauma.

Title: Away from These Shores (11/?)
Author:

ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers / warnings for this episode: Past suicidal ideation (and then some) in one paragraph; Dissociation (mostly not Dean's, for now); post-trauma, flashbacks, past violence & torture in hell and the Cage; quick reference the Winchesters' painful upbringing.
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

He remembers his father’s arm around his shoulder, his eyes dark and worried, his voice doing that thing it did whenever he was feeling too much and decided to feel nothing at all. I know you miss him, but you can’t fall apart on me like that, we’ve got a job to do.

He remembers trying.

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

*A/N: I deleted my own post last year about this WIP while going through a bad bout of anxiety. So, seeing as I've added a few new chapters since then, I thought I'd re-post. I really hope that's okay (and my apologies if I miss any PM's -- I'm apparently a complete moron, because I cannot for the life of me work the LJ inbox anymore. Not sure why).

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This started out as a Sam-centric fic, and it still is, so fair warning about that; but my fondness for Dean and his struggles snuck in soon enough. So, this fic has caretaker!Dean who is also increasingly revealing and dealing with his own trauma, and we get his POV as well. I think that might be relevant here. The next chapter I'm working on seems to be relatively Dean-heavy, too.

Title: Away from These Shores (10/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers / warnings: A lot of dissociation (mostly not Dean's, for now); occasional self-harm in later chapters; post-trauma, past violence & torture in hell and the Cage; occasional mentions of the Winchesters' painful upbringing. Some grief, since in this slightly AU Cas did not survive Swan Song, and Bobby & Ellen are around (but Jo is gone).
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

on AO3: from the beginning, or latest chpater (10)

kalliel

Title: Your Bones
Genre: gen, tag to 12x23 "All Along the Watchtower," hurt/comfort (physical/psychological - Dean; psychological - Sam)
Characters: Dean (POV), Sam, Jody, Claire, Alex
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: injury recovery, alcohol abuse, delayed self-flagellating guilt
Word Count: ~4500
Summary: Lucifer fractured Dean's spine--just, you know, a little bit--so Dean and Sam head to Sioux Falls to rest, recover, and pull it together. Naturally, the first thing they do is fall apart.

You’ve been saying, for Mary's sake, that Look! you’re fine! she made you who you are, and you went and saved the world. You told her so loud it echoed back and you believed it. For just a little too long, you believed it.

darkest-angel13.livejournal.com

Title: Catch me when I fall

Characters: Dean, Sam & Bobby
Genre: Gen
Summary: S2. Dean has barely been eating since their dad died 5 months ago, which leads to him passing out after a hunt. Sam and Bobby finally realise how much he has been struggling since John's death, and try to help him. Sick!Dean. Worried/Protective!Sam/Bobby.

FF & AO3

pineapplefan92.livejournal.com

Title: Blur
Author: pineapplefan92
Rating: T
Characters: Sam, Dean
Summary:"Ever since she came back, that image I created of her keeps becoming more and more blurred. A-And I don't think it's ever going to come back into focus." Tag to Episode 12x13, Family Feud. [Features emotional pain for both Dean AND Sam.]

Posted on: FF.net | AO3

winchesterpooja.livejournal.com

(banner by my lovely sister, Nadia)

Title: Fireflies in the Dark
Rating: R for some heavy topics
Genre: TFW, Brotherly SamnDean, Destiel AU (TFW are roommates with Doctor!Cas, mechanic!Dean, Pre-Law!Sam), Angst, Drama, Romance, Fluff, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Brotherly Love, Slow Build Destiel, Sam-Cas friendship, Emotional Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Dean/Cas as the main, others listed on the A/N of the first chapter.
Characters: Sam, Dean, Castiel, Claire, Mary Winchester, Ellen, Bobby, Ruby, Jo, Lucifer, Charlie and OCs
Word count: ~5000 for the chapter
Summary: When Dr Castiel Novak receives his last patient for the day at the ER, he doesn't know just how drastically his life is about to change. Meanwhile, Special Agent Bobby Singer has some terrible news to deliver to the Winchester boys.
As each new breath and heartbeat becomes a miracle and a luxury, Cas and the Winchesters learn to live, love and sacrifice. They learn to be grateful for what they have and to hope. Because sometimes hope is the only thing that can keep you going.
Warnings: Terrorism, Violence, (non-graphic) Rape/Non-con, Depression, Amputation, Permanent Injury, Whumped boys, Emotional Manipulation, Drug Addiction, Substance Abuse, PTSD, Character Death, Self-Harm, Suicidal Thoughts, Sex, Medical Jargon, Idiots in Love

Disclaimer: I don't own anything you recognise. I really wish I did, but nope. Kripke is the one who created them.

** hurt tags are as per the kind of h/c written in current chapters and not overall

On LJ
Chapters
1 | 2 | 3 | 4
Interlude
5 | 6

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supernutjapan.livejournal.com

Title:Fun House (AO3)

Summary:Sam and Dean Winchester are picked up by a travelling circus while they are very young. The circus is a very dangerous place for two young boys and Dean must give up a part of himself in order to protect his brother.
Timed a few months after Shattered Pieces. A chapter of revelations, heartache and turmoil for both Dean and Sam. The start of a new beginning.

Rating: Explicit
Warnings:Graphic depictions of violence,rape/non-con underage,sexual slave, angst, brother feels, hurt Dean, hurt Sam, wincest feels
Fandom:Supernatural (AU)
Series: Part 6 of the The Boy in the Mirror (AO3 here) series
Author's Notes: A BIG THANK YOU TO

siennavie for art,

karakuri_doll for beta and encouragement.

pineapplefan92.livejournal.com

Title: What We Need
Author:

pineapplefan92
Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Angst
Category: Gen
Rating: T
Characters: Dean, Sam
Summary: It's the dead of the night when it happens. Coda to Episode 11x17, Red Meat.
Status: Complete

Read it here: FF.net | AO3

supernutjapan.livejournal.com

Title:Shattered Pieces

Summary:Sam and Dean Winchester are picked up by a travelling circus while they are very young. The circus is a very dangerous place for two young boys and Dean must give up a part of himself in order to protect his brother. Timed 3 months after Broken - Sam is struck with a mysterious illness. Dean has to ask the Master for help, which comes at a steeper price than Dean could ever know.
Rating: Explicit
Warnings:Graphic depictions of violence,rape/non-con underage,sexual slave, gangbang, angst, brother feels, hurt Dean, hurt Sam
Fandom:Supernatural (AU)
Series: Part 5 of the The Boy in the Mirror (AO3 here) series
Author's Notes: A BIG THANK YOU TO

siennavie for art,

vyperdd and

wind_storms for beta and suggestions<3

crowroad3.livejournal.com

Title: Vespers
Author: crowroad3
Genre: gen, Deanangst, kitchen-sink litany
Characters: Dean, Cas, Sam
Rating: G
Warnings/Spoilers: S11, 11 x09
Word Count: 1,000+
Summary: Who do you pray to when your brother’s gone to hell, and the sun’s going down.
(or: a short history of prayer, Winchester-style)

AO3
LJ

sw0rdy.livejournal.com

Title: Heaven Talks, But Not to Me
Author:

sw0rdy
Pairing: Sam/Dean (eventually)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 6,638
Summary: Dean says yes to Michael and together they avert the apocalypse. Now he and Sam have got the opportunity to lead normal lives, but Dean’s reluctant to let Michael go...
Author's Note: Majestic_duxk wanted brotherly angels and I'm sorry that this may only loosely address your prompts, hon, but if it's any consolation, this hardened gen writer wrote Wincest for you! :) I also must say a HUGE thank you to my wonderful, wonderful beta

thruterryseyes, who never batted an eyelid when, barely a day ago I emailed her going 'arghhhh, can you look over this for me please? BTW, it's got to be posted by Christmas!' Not only did she wave her magic wand over it, she also did art. Seriously, hon, you're awesome. Anyway, all that's left for me to say (since it's after midnight here in the UK) is MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Heaven Talks, But Not to Me

winchesterpooja.livejournal.com

Title: Fireflies in the Dark
Rating: R for some heavy topics
Genre: TFW, Brotherly SamnDean, Destiel AU (TFW are roommates with Doctor!Cas, mechanic!Dean, Pre-Law!Sam), Angst, Drama, Romance, Fluff, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Brotherly Love, Slow Build Destiel, Sam-Cas friendship, Emotional Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Dean/Cas, and background pairings that will have no real action.
Characters: Sam, Dean, Castiel, Claire, Mary Winchester, Ellen, Bobby, Ruby, Jo, Lucifer, Charlie and OCs
Word count: ~5000 for the chapter
Summary: When Dr Castiel Novak receives his last patient for the day at the ER, he doesn't know just how drastically his life is about to change. Meanwhile, Special Agent Bobby Singer has some terrible news to deliver to the Winchester boys.
As each new breath and heartbeat becomes a miracle and a luxury, Cas and the Winchesters learn to live, love and sacrifice. They learn to be grateful for what they have and to hope. Because sometimes hope is the only thing that can keep you going.
Warnings: Terrorism, Violence, (non-graphic) Rape/Non-con, Depression, Amputation, Permanent Injury, Whumped boys, Emotional Manipulation, Drug Addiction, Substance Abuse, PTSD, Character Death, Self-Harm, Suicidal Thoughts, Sex, Medical Jargon, Idiots in Love

Disclaimer: I don't own anything you recognise. I really wish I did, but nope. Kripke is the one who created them.

On LJ
Chapters: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4
On AO3
On Fanfiction.net

winchesterpooja.livejournal.com

Title: And He Wished Upon a Star
Authors: spn_bookworm, winchesterpooja
Artist: venuscas

Fandom/Genre: SPN/ Dystopian!AU, TFW fic, Destiel, brothertouching

Pairing (s): Dean/Castiel, references to Dean/Jo, Sam/Jess, Sam/Sarah, Sam/Madison.

Rating: NC – 17

Word Count: ~82k

Warnings: suicide, character deaths (including major character death), sex, torture, slavery, severe PTSD, panic attacks, nudity, violence

Summary: In an ugly world ruled by demons where humans are enslaved and hunted and killed, Dean must find his way through blood, loss and power. In this journey he realises that whether eternal or ephemeral, beauty can be found anywhere and everywhere. Sometimes it's in the laughter of his brother and sometimes in the warmth of his father's eyes. Other times, Dean remembers his mother, and how she always told him that all his wishes could come true one day, if he just thought of it hard enough.

Eventually when everything starts to crumble beneath his feet Dean is forced into a desperate fight to keep his family together. And in this journey he finds another thing that he never expected to: love in the arms of an angel.

A/N: Written for the DeanCas Big Bang 2015. Sam's a main character, so lotsa Sammy love too. :)

AO3 link

winchesterpooja.livejournal.com

Title: Fireflies in the Dark
Rating: R for many heavy topics
Genre: Brothertouching, Destiel AU (TFW are roommates with Doctor!Cas, mechanic!Dean, Pre-Law!Sam), Angst, Drama, Romance, Fluff, Family, Hurt/Comfort, Brotherly Love, Slow Build Destiel, Sam-Cas friendship, Emotional Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Dean/Cas, and background pairings that will have no real action.
Characters: Sam, Dean, Castiel, Claire, Mary Winchester, Ellen, Bobby, Ruby, Jo, Lucifer, Charlie and OCs
Word count: ~5000 for the chapter
Summary: When Dr Castiel Novak receives his last patient for the day at the ER, he doesn't know just how drastically his life is about to change. Meanwhile, Special Agent Bobby Singer has some terrible news to deliver to the Winchester boys.
As each new breath and heartbeat becomes a miracle and a luxury, Cas and the Winchesters learn to live, love and sacrifice. They learn to be grateful for what they have and to hope. Because sometimes hope is the only thing that can keep you going.
Warnings: Terrorism, Violence, (non-graphic) Rape/Non-con, Depression, Amputation, Permanent Injury, Whumped boys, Emotional Manipulation, Drug Addiction, Substance Abuse, PTSD, Character Death, Self-Harm, Suicidal Thoughts, Sex, Medical Jargon, Idiots in Love

Disclaimer: I don't own anything you recognise. I really wish I did, but nope. Kripke is the one who created them.

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zara-zee.livejournal.com

Title: Too long in the wasteland
Author:

zara_zee
Beta:

9tiptoes
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~11,000
Warnings: Dean-centric, immortal!MoC!Dean, swearing, violence, attempted assault, hurt!Dean, natural disasters, post-apocalyptic world, suicidal thoughts, diverges from canon during S10, major character deaths (with a happy ending!)
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Summary: The year is 2015 and Sam and Dean’s battle with the Mark of Cain is suddenly overshadowed by a series of catastrophic natural disasters that devastate the planet and irrevocably change life as we know it.

The year is… actually, Dean is damned if he knows. He stopped keeping track of shit like that after Sammy died. He’s just trying to make it through eternity one step at a time, only ever venturing out of the Wasteland to trade, and to listen to the stories people tell themselves about Before.

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ramblin_rosie

Title: Hunter Heart to Heart
Author: San Antonio Rose (

ramblin_rosie)
Fandoms: SPN/Girl Genius
Characters: Dean Winchester, Mamma Gkika
Pairing: Gen
Rating: PG
Word Count: 700
Warnings: Dean angst
Notes: I wrote this a while ago but am posting it as a fill for

kalliel's wish list on the wish list meme. Technically, this story is part of a larger S9 AU I'm working on, but it stands alone well enough that I'm posting it now; it could really be set just about any time post-"Abandon All Hope." If you're not familiar with Girl Genius, the main things you need to know are: 1) Mamma Gkika is a Jägermonster general--formerly human, transformed by a potion taken of her own free will and now essentially immortal--who runs a bar in Mechanicsburg, Transylvania, can change her skin color, and has a very thick accent (rendered phonetically, in accordance with canon). As you might guess if you know German, Jägers are a lot like hunters, aside from being monsters themselves. 2) The GG world is full of mad scientists called sparks--"mad" being a relative term, of course, for when they're not caught up in an experiment, they can be quite sane and even heroic. 3) Villainess Lucrezia Mongfish, aka "The Other," married hero Bill Heterodyne and tried to go straight but started the last major European war when she evidently returned to her evil ways and attempted to conquer Europe using mind-controlling slaver wasps.

Summary: A world away from home, Dean falls to thinking about his losses. Fortunately, Mamma Gkika is there to listen.

( "Vot vas her name?" )

q-dicted.livejournal.com

Title: My Empire Of Dirt
Author:

q_dicted
Characters: Dean, Sam, Joshua
Genre/pairing: Gen
Rating: PG-13 (Some swearing)
Word-count: 5390
Spoilers: Spoilers for all seasons. Liberal use of dialogue from 1.22, 2.22 and 10.14
Warnings:

Major character death - but as Sam says, in our world, death doesn't always mean goodbye.

Summary: Cain's prophecy is inevitable. What would Dean give to change things?
Disclaimer: Not mine.
A/N: My first foray into Supernatural fanfic and it's a dark ride. I hope you'll forgive me :) Cross-posted to AO3.

And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
~ Hurt, ©T.Reznor.
( My Empire Of Dirt )

pineapplefan92.livejournal.com

Title: Quarter Rest
Author:

pineapplefan92
Characters: Dean, Sam
Rating: PG
Word count: 4,694
Summary: Consumed by guilt and sadness over the loss of John, Dean winds up ill. Sam just wants him to rest. Tag to Episode 2x04. One-Shot.

Read it on: : LJ | FF.net | AO3

anactoria.livejournal.com

Title: We Who Were Living
Author:

anactoria
Characters/pairing: Dean/Cas(ish)
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Major character death (offscreen)
Word count: 5700
Summary: After the end of days, there are... more days. Castiel takes them one at a time. Sometimes Dean is there with him. Mostly he isn't.
AU from 5.18 "Point of No Return". Dean said 'yes', Sam was killed along with Lucifer, and Michael checked out. Cas and Dean try to live in the aftermath.

Read on: LJ | AO3

Sorry for the two posts in a row! I just realised I forgot to post this here the other day...

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Entries tagged with grief

FIC: Stand And Breathe, PG-13, gen

Away from These Shores (11/?)

Away from These Shores (traumatized, caretaker Dean)

[Fic] Your Bones

Catch me when I fall

[Fic] Blur

[Fic] Fireflies in the Dark: Chapter Six

Fic: The Boy in the Mirror Part 6 - Fun House

Fic: What We Need

FIC: The Boy in the Mirror Part 5: Shattered Pieces

Fic: Vespers

Fic: Heaven Talks, But Not to Me

[FIC] Fireflies in the Dark [R | 4/?]

[FIC] And He Wished Upon a Star

[FIC] Fireflies in the Dark [R | 2/?]

Fic: Too long in the Wasteland

Fic: Hunter Heart to Heart (SPN/Girl Genius, PG)

My Empire Of Dirt

Fic: Quarter Rest (Gen, PG)

Fic: We Who Were Living

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