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ever-dimming.livejournal.com

Like previos episodes, this one has shifting POV's that include Dean's. A reminder: this is a Sam-centric fic, but it definitely dives into Dean's internal struggle as he deals with his own trauma.

Title: Away from These Shores (11/?)
Author:

ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers / warnings for this episode: Past suicidal ideation (and then some) in one paragraph; Dissociation (mostly not Dean's, for now); post-trauma, flashbacks, past violence & torture in hell and the Cage; quick reference the Winchesters' painful upbringing.
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

He remembers his father’s arm around his shoulder, his eyes dark and worried, his voice doing that thing it did whenever he was feeling too much and decided to feel nothing at all. I know you miss him, but you can’t fall apart on me like that, we’ve got a job to do.

He remembers trying.

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

*A/N: I deleted my own post last year about this WIP while going through a bad bout of anxiety. So, seeing as I've added a few new chapters since then, I thought I'd re-post. I really hope that's okay (and my apologies if I miss any PM's -- I'm apparently a complete moron, because I cannot for the life of me work the LJ inbox anymore. Not sure why).

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This started out as a Sam-centric fic, and it still is, so fair warning about that; but my fondness for Dean and his struggles snuck in soon enough. So, this fic has caretaker!Dean who is also increasingly revealing and dealing with his own trauma, and we get his POV as well. I think that might be relevant here. The next chapter I'm working on seems to be relatively Dean-heavy, too.

Title: Away from These Shores (10/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers / warnings: A lot of dissociation (mostly not Dean's, for now); occasional self-harm in later chapters; post-trauma, past violence & torture in hell and the Cage; occasional mentions of the Winchesters' painful upbringing. Some grief, since in this slightly AU Cas did not survive Swan Song, and Bobby & Ellen are around (but Jo is gone).
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

on AO3: from the beginning, or latest chpater (10)

boysinperil.livejournal.com

It's only the first chapter, and it's not quite edited the way I want it to be, but I also want feedback on my voice and pacing, etc. So! Please go listen and let me know what you think!

On AO3

sw0rdy.livejournal.com

Title: The Man in the Alley

Rating: PG-13

Word count: 3,457

Warnings: Post-Purgatory extremely traumatised Dean, physical injuries.

Author’s note: This is a prequel to 'You've Done All the Things That Could Kill You Somehow'.

Summary: “I know you’re scared, but I want you to trust me.”

In all her nursing career, she's never had a patient like this.

Posted on LJ here and at AO3 here

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

Title: Untitled [Dean, nightmare]
Author: ever_dimming
Category: Gen
Rating: teen and up (not familiar with the rating system, sorry)
Characters: Dean, Sam
Warnings: See tags, but nothing we don't see in / know from the Show
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am only suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer even more.

Summary:
If for no other reason, Sam believes in the existence of a god because there has GOT to be some twisted sense of humor behind giving night terrors to a man who sleeps with a gun under his pillow.
Dean is in no condition to appreciate the irony, though.

Gen, post 1.09. The week following their visit to their childhood home is hard, and one night Dean suffers a massive nightmare. Sam tries to help -- not like he hasn't been through this with Dean before -- but this one hurts in whole new ways.

LJ, AO3

Current Mood: unhappy with this fic
Current Location: bed

anniespinkhouse.livejournal.com

Title: Toast
Author:

anniespinkhouse
Category: Gen. Pre-series.
Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, John Winchester
Rating: R
Warnings: Traumatized Dean, angst
Summary: Inspired by a post on Tumblr wondering what past event led to Sam's S1 comment about John, which Dean doesn't defend - "...the man can't work a toaster."

{LJ} {AO3}

sw0rdy.livejournal.com

Title: Fearless Was My Middle Name (But Somewhere There I Lost My Way)

Summary: He feels tired and beaten down, like one more disaster will propel him into a tailspin that he can't pull up from. How does he say, I wish I was sick again, because you were better, even though he knows Dean's 'better' was unsustainable.

Rating: PG-13

Genre/pairing: Gen

Spoilers: Up to the end of Season 7.

Warnings: Bad language, show-level violence, mental health issues.

Word count: 4,185

Author’s Note: Sequel to 'You've Done All the Things That Could Kill You Somehow'. Follows on directly from Just Because I’m Losing, Doesn’t Mean I’m Lost. Thank you once again to

thruterryseyes for the beta and the cover art. This series is so much better for all your input!

ever-dimming.livejournal.com

Holy crap, it's been a long time since I posted here (I think my last post was a catatonic!Dean fic for one of the memes roughly two years ago. Geez). Health issues have derailed my life and I stopped writing; been trying to get back into it, since I'm bedridden most of the time now and in need of comfort. *End of sob story*

Anyways, this is just a testing-the-waters, short, gen fic featuring a very drunk Dean, a protective Sam and a, well, Castiel-like Cas.

Summary: Gen, post-hell, so around late season four, minus the demon blood arc. Dean has been back a while, but that doesn't mean hell doesn't catch up with him sometimes. Sam and Cas deal as best they can.

Warnings: Language, alcohol abuse, angst; short, non-graphic reference to past torture.

Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am only suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer even more.

Cas finds himself going stone still as Dean blinks hazily up at his brother, eyes bloodshot and unfocused.
"I c- - I can't do, do th- this anymore. Lemme go. I'm done, Sammy. O - - okay? Imma go, because, because - - "
Sam's own breath stutters as he waits. The room is silent, a distant siren the only interruption as the man in the bed struggles to find the words that elude him in coherence. Some things Dean can never say sober.

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Current Mood: blank

frozen_delight

SPN Reverse Bang Challenge 2015
Prompt Number: S2027
Art Title: CRACK |-| Artist:

zephyrchrysalis

Fic Title: CRACK |-| Author:

frozen_delight

Fandom/Genre: SPN, Angst |-| Pairing(s): Gen. Dean, Sam, Amara
Rating: PG-13 |-| Word Count: ~ 6800
Warnings: Dark themes. Spoilers up to and including 11x06 “Our Little World”.

Summary: The Darkness is coming. It’s so peaceful. It’s coming for all of us.
Post-11x06 AU in which Dean is hit by a crying curse and nothing is the same.

Art Link(s): Graphics - LJ |-| Fic Link(s): LJ | AO3

yohkobennington.livejournal.com

Author:

yohkobennington
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Word-count: 2k
Summary: They say revenge is a plate best served cold. Sam can wait to have his feast.
Warnings: Underage (Sam is 17). Mention of a future non-con situation. Gore. Murder. Semi-public sex. Mention of Child abuse.
Notes: Written for

salt_burn_porn 2015.

Carousel Of Broken Dreams

sw0rdy.livejournal.com

Title: Every Day is Exactly the Same
Author:

sw0rdy
Artist:

liliaeth
Rating: R
Warnings: Bad language, show level violence.
Word Count: 72,800
Spoilers For Season 10
Author's Notes: Written for the 2015

spn_j2_bigbang. My heartfelt thanks goes to the wonderful

thruterryseyes who has betaed the fic and helped shape it into the story it is now. After some last-minute alterations, any remaining errors are mine. She’s probably very glad it’s time to post it as she’ll kill me if I fiddle with it anymore! Thank you, hon. Seriously, you've been awesome. The wonderful art to accompany the story is by Liliaeth. Check out her masterpost here

Summary: Set over several years, starting in Season 10, directly after 'The Things We Left Behind'. Shaken by the massacre of the loan sharks and with no way to remove the Mark of Cain, Dean agrees to the next best alternative: retirement. Their peaceful new life doesn't last long however. When Abaddon abducts Dean after securing the First Blade, she’s got the perfect new weapon of mass destruction to take Hell from Crowley. Sam battles to rescue Dean who must then endure withdrawal from the Mark’s effects within the bunker’s panic room.

Fearful of the same happening again, Dean gets himself detained in a secure psychiatric hospital where he convinces the doctors that he’s got paranoid schizophrenia. Reluctantly respecting his brother’s wishes, Sam goes back to studying law and leaves Dean where he wants to be. Three years later, while still looking for a way to remove the Mark, Sam stumbles across a prophecy that Lucifer will rise and will only be stopped by the bearer of the Mark, forcing Dean leave his hiding place and take up the Blade one last time...

Fic on LJ

Fic at AO3

ART Masterpost

i-speak-tongue.livejournal.com

TITLE: The Shard and the Specter
GENRE: Gen, H/C
SPOILERS: Coda to 10.14
CHAR: Dean and Sam
RATING: PG 13
WORDS:1395
SUMMARY: Sam brings Dean home after the showdown with Cain.

(He worries that Dean’s in some kind of shock. He doesn’t speak, just twists a frayed strand of blanket wool between his fingers and squeezes his eyes closed every few minutes. Like he’s trying desperately to remember something. Or forget something.)

thruterryseyes.livejournal.com

Artist:

thruterryseyes
Story: and reality snarled...
Genre: emotional/ psychological hurt
Warnings: fire, burning
Characters: Sam, Dean
Summary: Dean is forced to face the inevitable.
Same old same old. Read story or not as you are so inclined. Either way, enjoy the art. Click the pic to make it bigger.

If you want to read the story it's at this link.
http://www.thruterryseyes.com/and-reality-snarled.html

frozen_delight

Title: The New York Story
Author:

frozen_delight
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Angst. Incest. Dark themes.
Spoilers: Up to and including 10x09 “The Things We Left Behind”.
Word count: ~ 4600
Beta: Many, many thanks to the fabulous

canonisrelative who was once again incredibly kind and supportive and unbelievably quick. All remaining mistakes are mine of course.
Summary: To Sam it was always The New York Story.

A/N: Coda to 10x09 because I thought it was interesting that Dean’s reactions to the “John Winchester in New York” tale were quite different than Sam’s, and because I felt that the actions of teenager!Dean were wildly OOC, and could only be explained by the fact that this was the “sanitized for Sammy” version rather than what actually happened.

Read here on LJ, or on AO3 and FF.net

freya922.livejournal.com

Title: Lady Madonna
Author: Freya922
Pairing: Gen
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Adult language, angst
Word Count: 4,600+
Summary: After the family moves on short notice, Mary realizes their new home is inhabited by a ghost with an alarming fixation on three-and-a-half-year-old Dean. She has to take care of the situation while keeping John in the dark. A story of wee!Dean in danger originally posted as part of the 2014 Summergen fix exchange.

Read it here.

aryyuna89.livejournal.com

Title: I promise (AO3/FFN/LJ/Italian version)
Author:

aryyuna89
Characters: Dean, Sam, Castiel, Claire.
Genre/pairing: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Gen
Rating: T
Word-count: 3883
Spoilers: 10x09.
Summary: He wouldn't lose his brother. Not again. Episode 10x09 "The things we left behind" coda.
Disclaimer: Sadly, Supernatural doesn’t belong to me.

spn-passenger.livejournal.com

Title: Without You (The Tears Dry)
Author:spn_passenger
Artist:kj_svala
Rating:R for depressing, suicidal thoughts, also mentions of self-harm.
Warnings: Depressing, suicidal thoughts, also mentions of self-harm. Set in season 8, spoilers for 9x03.
Word Count:56,088
Summary:Sam makes an unexpected discovery about Dean. He's keeping a secret journal, in shape of series of cassettes, for times he wasn't feeling so well. Maybe he didn’t know Dean as well as he thought he did. But, suicide notes were the last thing on his mind.
Notes: Special thanks to madsthehunter for going over this story and being the best and awesomest beta known in the history of mankind!!! And wow, I'm blown away by the arts kj_svala made for me. I'm so excited overall and it's like tons and tons of virtual cookies for me.

Art MasterPost

Download from mediafire: Without You (The Tears Dry)
Read from: Fanfiction.net| AO3

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Mad World

kalliel

Title: Beauty I
Genre: gen, stream of consciousness
Characters: Dean (POV), the Impala, Sam
Word Count: ~3700
Rating: thematic R
Warnings: because the fic itself is gen, warning for brief m/m insinuations; trigger warning for extensive imagination of suicide
Summary: What to do when you might be beyond salvage, and how to tell your brother.
Notes: 10x05 "Fan Fiction" tag, slightly inflected with 3x10 "Dream a Little Dream of Me" and 10x07 "Girls, Girls, Girls." It also fills my

spnspiration bingo squares for "future tense" and "non-linearity." Serves as prequel to Beauty II, which is a short 10x06 tag.

What Dean imagines vibrantly before him takes the form of engine oil and brand new gaskets, pumping steel and bright red, arterial wires. For a moment, Dean loses himself to a fantasy of cotter pins and bearing cups. He wants, he realizes. He really wants.

jj1564.livejournal.com

Title: Promises, Promises - Part Two
Rating: PG13
Word Count: 7336 part two;15219 total
Warnings: Mild violence, psychological trauma and swearing.
Author’s Notes: This is based on the following prompt “Quitting hunting was the easy part, after the injury/aches and pains/psychological toll. It was adapting to the mundane that was difficult. That’s why Dean started hunting on the sly again. That’s the only reason.”
Thank you to my wonderful, patient, heard-working beta for being so kind and helpful.
Summary: Dean sets off to find the thing that took Julia's sister and Castiel him. What happens on the hunt and in the aftermath makes Dean re-evaluate his life.

Originally posted by

jj1564 at My Summergen Entry - "Promises, Promises" - Part Two

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jj1564.livejournal.com

Title: Promises, Promises - Part One
Rating: PG13
Word Count: 7738 part one; 15219 total
Warnings: Mild violence, psychological trauma and swearing.
Author’s Notes: This is based on

quadrant_of_sky 's prompt “Quitting hunting was the easy part, after the injury/aches and pains/psychological toll. It was adapting to the mundane that was difficult. That’s why Dean started hunting on the sly again. That’s the only reason.” Thank you to my wonderful, patient, heard-working beta for being so kind and helpful.
Summary: A year after Dean died and became a demon, the brothers have retired and are attempting a “normal” life. Sam is back at Stanford studying and dating a girl, Dean is working in a local bar. Dean has been saved and brought back but has some lasting damage from the Mark.

Originally posted by

jj1564 at My Summergen Entry - "Promises, Promises" - Part One

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Entries tagged with psychological trauma

Away from These Shores (11/?)

Away from These Shores (traumatized, caretaker Dean)

Podfic of Sharlot's Jai Guru Deva Om

Fic: The Man in the Alley - Chapter 1

Dean, nightmare, post 1.09 (Home)

Toast (Gen, Rated R)

Fic: Fearless Was My Middle Name (But Somewhere There I Lost My Way)

Drunk!Dean fic

CRACK - PG-13, Sam, Dean, Amara

Fic: Carousel Of Broken Dreams [R]- Sam/Dean

Fic: Every Day is Exactly the Same

Fic: The Shard and the Specter

Artpost New Cover: and reality snarled...

Fic: The New York Story

Lady Madonna

[FIC] I promise (1/1, Dean, Sam, Castiel, Claire, T, Gen)

Fic: Without You (The Tears Dry) , Rating: R, Dean, Sam, gen

[Fic] Beauty I - the Impala, Dean, Sam; stream of consciousness; 10x05 tag

Promises, Promises - Part Two

Promises, Promises - Part One

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