like a fever that just won't break.

Title: Bildungsroman
Genre: gen, pre-series, northern Plains gothic
Characters: Dean, Bobby. Peripheral John, Sam. Bobby POV.
Rating: R
Word Count: ~2500
Warnings: This fic is gen in that it contains no romantic pairings; however, it discusses, imagines, and treats sex and sexuality as major themes. underage sexuality, non-explicit statutory rape, psychological trauma (sexual and otherwise), questionable parenting choices
Summary: Sex, drugs, and Totoros.
Notes: Inspired by Dean’s My Neighbor Totoro reference in 11x08 “Just My Imagination” and encouragement from milly_gal, septembers_coda, and brightly_lit in this comment thread. This is not, however, the cute fic such a prompt richly deserves, nor anything you might have expected or desired.

Sex, drugs, and Totoros.

Title: Shadowman
Vidder: justmep2
Song: "Shadowman" by K's Choice
Characters: Dean; Sam, Castiel, special guest at the end
Genre: gen
Tags: mark of cain, depression, abandonment issues, identity issues, supernatural powers, blood loss, lacerations, injury (misc.), death, daddy issues, emotional pain, psychological damage
Warnings: Spoilers through 9x23, angsty angst
Description: Dean and his journey in season 9.
"Any time tomorrow a part of me will die / And a new one will be born / Any time tomorrow / I'll get sick of asking why / Sick of all the darkness I have worn"

Reccer's Commentary: I left an effluent comment on the video itself, so I'm just going to copy that here if no one minds. If it's tl;dr basically my commentary is WATCH THIS NOW. Or set aside a time when you have six minutes of uninterrupted time to spare, because this deserves your full, unrushed attention. Or possibly more than six minutes, if you choose to watch it again immediately upon finishing it. Which I may or may not need to do a few more times, er:

This video put my heart in my throat and kept it there the entire six minutes. This is phenomenal.

I particularly liked your pairing of Sam and Castiel walking away from Dean in 9x23 and Dean walking away from them in 9x10--it had really great flow, visually, and the juxtaposition of those two scenes both thematically and emotionally just blew me away. [...]

And wowwwwww that last bit! Your pairing of John's last words and Dean's is a stroke of genius--it never once would have occurred to me to make that connection (or to remember John's words), and my initial reaction to the scene when I first watched 9x23 was basically just like, "lol Dean what part of this past year are you proud of us for, exactly." And I really haven't been sure what to do with the line, because I couldn't find any resonance for it. But here is one interpretation right in this vid! And it's a beautiful one.

I guess in a similar vein I've had trouble for the latter part of S9 maintaining my emotional, immediately personal connection to SPN, instead drifting off in a haze of more cerebral glee and idk almost pornographic meta enjoyment of their pain. Not that there's anything wrong with that, I mean. XD But I prefer to be emotionally devastated and then thrilled by that devastation, rather than skip that first step, you know?

This vid put me right there in that emotional sweet spot. [...]