This is wonderful. I am not generally a critic of the show - I tend to enjoy what we get. However, I truly felt that we were cheated out of seeing the true effect of the Mark being torn from Dean. Thanks to some truly great writing here, I now feel as if I've 'seen' it. So thank you for that!
And thank you most especially for this:
He'd get rid of the Mark, get Dean back, and they'd have a chance to be brothers again, the way they'd been before the trials had emptied Sam of his hope, before Dean had been left without a choice except Ezekiel, before Sam had broken his brother's heart…before Dean had fucking died on him.
and this:
"Please," Sam choked out, turning Dean's face toward him. His brother's skin was like ice, his chest no longer moving, though Sam could detect a slight wheeze of air. "Please don't do this, Dean. Please."
Dean had warned him, had told him that the Mark was more than just a curse. It was a punishment for a sin Dean had never committed. It was more than any one human could bear.
Dean had made the choice to take it on thinking he was out of options, thinking that he'd been abandoned by the one person who should have loved him no matter what.
"I do love you, dammit," Sam growled, sniffing as tears slipped from the corner of his eyes to drip from the end of his nose and splash onto Dean's pale cheek. "You're my big brother, man. I've always loved you. Please don't let it win, Dean. I need you. The world needs you."
I would dearly love to hear/see canon-Sam have these thoughts, to know that he finally understands what Dean did and why, and to not only truly forgive him for it, but to ask a little forgiveness himself for his not-inconsiderable role in it. Since we'll probably never get this from the show itself, these words you've given us here are going to be my head-canon.
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Date: 2015-07-31 08:24 pm (UTC)And thank you most especially for this:
He'd get rid of the Mark, get Dean back, and they'd have a chance to be brothers again, the way they'd been before the trials had emptied Sam of his hope, before Dean had been left without a choice except Ezekiel, before Sam had broken his brother's heart…before Dean had fucking died on him.
and this:
"Please," Sam choked out, turning Dean's face toward him. His brother's skin was like ice, his chest no longer moving, though Sam could detect a slight wheeze of air. "Please don't do this, Dean. Please."
Dean had warned him, had told him that the Mark was more than just a curse. It was a punishment for a sin Dean had never committed. It was more than any one human could bear.
Dean had made the choice to take it on thinking he was out of options, thinking that he'd been abandoned by the one person who should have loved him no matter what.
"I do love you, dammit," Sam growled, sniffing as tears slipped from the corner of his eyes to drip from the end of his nose and splash onto Dean's pale cheek. "You're my big brother, man. I've always loved you. Please don't let it win, Dean. I need you. The world needs you."
I would dearly love to hear/see canon-Sam have these thoughts, to know that he finally understands what Dean did and why, and to not only truly forgive him for it, but to ask a little forgiveness himself for his not-inconsiderable role in it. Since we'll probably never get this from the show itself, these words you've given us here are going to be my head-canon.
Wonderful.