When You Break, Post 1/1, PG-13, Dean, Sam, GEN

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Title: When You Break
Fandom: Supernatural
Author: gaelicspirit
Disclaimer: They're not mine. More's the pity. Story title from song by Bear's Den, as are the lyrics at the beginning and end of the story.

Summary: Missing scene from 9.18, Meta Fiction. Is there a moment you recognize the edge, or do you simply slip over, your exhale a helpless prayer that someone will be there to catch you and pull you back?

Author's Note: This might have been a bit more timely had I been able to write and post it directly after the episode, but life had other ideas for how I should spend my time over the last week. I'm not certain this hasn't already been written much better by someone else, but this moment wouldn't let me go, so I sat down this afternoon and decided to give it a shot. I wanted to try to see the scene in the abandoned factory – the aftermath of Dean beating Gadreel for information – from each brother's eyes before the die is cast in the final four episodes of this season. Turns out, it was a bit harder than I thought as Dean isn't completely Dean and Sam has chosen to hold himself apart from this brother. Still, I hope it resonates with some of you.

Also, this has not been beta'd. Or even given my friend's customary sanity read. It's first-draft raw. And…it's a bit angsty. And dark. You've been warned.

recs: comment meme fills

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My s9 Dean-centric comment meme is still going on, so here are the two awesome fills that have been posted so far!

Title: Untitled
Author: misterdeanvimes
Tags: psychological trauma, self-esteem issues, mark of cain
Characters: Dean
Genre/pairing: gen
Rating: PG
Word-count: 400
Spoilers: 9x17
Warnings: stabbing imagery
Summary: for the prompt:"Dean trying to fix the impala after Abaddon's demons scratched her up so badly in Blade Runners"
Reccer’s comments: Wonderfully written fic exploring Dean's headspace at this point in the season.

Title: Wake Up
Author: anonymous
Tags: insomnia, alcoholism, sleep deprivation, mark of cain
Characters: Dean, Sam
Genre/pairing: gen
Rating: PG
Word-count: 1000
Spoilers: 9x18
Summary: for the prompt: "Turns out the Mark of Cain has some physical effects. It makes him stronger and makes him feel less pain. But it pumps him full of adrenaline so that he is always feeling wired and anxious and can never sleep. The only way he can really calm himself down and get some rest is with alcohol. He tries to hide these effects from Sam."
Reccer’s comments: This fic is really beautifully understated and characterized for both brothers, and made my heart break for Dean. I love the Sam POV in this fic as he's realizing that something is wrong.